3/365

this entry is one day late, because yesterday was SO FULL!!!

i started taking care of *C* who is a 4.5 yo boy, and ALL energy, and *S* who is a 2.5 yo girl, and ALL attitude! :)

after they got picked up, *Bug* and i napped, then picked up *Bean* from the bus, and chilled til Nana came to pick us up to finish laundry. we missed out on Open House night at school :(

got home at 8:15, and the girls didnt get to sleep til after 10:30. then my brain wouldnt turn off!!! and then there were all sorts of middle of the night sleep interruptions... so being up at 5:30 is NOT easy yet!!!

i took alot of pics of our day, but i dont have permission from their mom to post them here. yet.

so for now i post one of *Bean*, one of *Bug* and one of myself from day 3/365

2/365

LONG day today.

it's 11:30 pm, and *Bug* is still awake, nursing and smacking me. and occasionally hopping off the bed to wander the bedroom in the dark mumbling about pandas.

I have to be awake at 5:30 am tomorrow to start my first day with family #2 providing child care for their two children *C* who is a 4.5 yo boy and *S* who is a 2.5 yo girl. Family #1 has *E* who is also a 2.5 yo girl, but she only comes here on Thursdays.

Today we went to my moms house after *Bean* got home from school. i did laundry while *Bean* and *Bug* got to spend time with Nana, and Papa, and Uncle V, and *P* who is a temporary placement in my parents adult foster care home.

for now, i leave the blog with an old picture i took this summer of a beautiful pink flower, because i wasnt able to take any pictures today. hopefully i can get some cranked out tomorrow.

1/365

day 1 of 365

this is my attempt to record 365 consecutive days of my life.

I am a woman, a mother, and a wife. I am fat, and happy. I am bipolar.

today I started my day quite sore, did i mention I also have Fibromyalgia?

I was completely un-motivated to do anything, but with the two chirping kids, *Bean* and *Bug* wanting breakfast, and to get dressed, as well as a house that looked like a 5 year old hurricane had run through it (that would be *Bean*), I had to find motivation quickly.

after an Episode of Glee on the laptop while the girls made a bigger mess and ate bagles, I felt ready enough to dress them. which lasted about 5 minutes for *Bug*, who is a 2 year old nudist. :)

I havent showered since yesterday, and I have at least 3 loads of laundry to wash residing in my bedroom, as well as another 3 residing in my moms laundry room.

my kids are fed, played with, and happy. for the most part.

and i am feeling.... frazzled.